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Thursday, October 7, 2010

In Memory of Maggie

Maggie
April 22, 1996 to October 6, 2010
Maggie went in our arms. It was gentle, like she was. She began to snore, singing her song one last time for us near the end. Impossibly, it brought a brief smile to me, through the tears. Finding words to honor her is impossible. They do not exist. She brought laughter, smiles, comfort. She had an essence, soul, better than most humans.

The house is empty. Her clicking toenails are no longer heard. It was hard to sleep without a small, 10-lb. pumpkin, snoring and pushing me over to the other side of the bed. When I finally drifted off for a moment, I could smell her. Her funny walk will no longer bring a smile to my face. She is not in one of her favorite spots right now, smiling her funny smile at me. No one sneezed on my face to wake me up this morning.

Our hearts ache in a way that feels like it will never heal.

Her last week was not good, though she never let on. She had a lot of heart, brave and rarely showed she was in pain.. She could barely eat the last few days. We thought it was her medication. She would take her cookie, nibble a bite then hide it away in her bed. She briefly tried play with her favorite faceless ducky yesterday. When I was combing her chest after her bath, I found her chest was deep maroon. Her blood was no longer clotting. I broke out in tears, knowing what was to come. We were lucky she made it through her first bout last spring. We were gifted with a mere 7 months more of her charms. It is not right to prolong pain. It is not fair that she had such a short life. She made it to her 70's, it did not seem even close to being long enough. We know intellectually we did all we could, yet feel like it was not enough.

Thank you Maggie for everything. You brought us love, laughter, and more. You will always be in our hearts. We miss you.

7 comments :

  1. Maggie will always be with you in your heart. She was lucky to have spent her life with such a loving family. Go love some more, she would want you to.

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  2. Maggie is there with you , as Kelsey is here with us. She was with you in bed and will be with you as your days go by. You will smell her, feel her and even see her. It is the dance.

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  3. Debbi,

    I'm so very sorry for your loss. I felt like I *knew* Maggie from your stories of her & photos. I cried at her loss & cried again over your memorial here. You said the words weren't good enough, but they were. I could feel pain over the loss of her love & light.

    Much love,
    Karen

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  4. I'm so sorry to see this. Yes, we know they're finite, that we'll outlive them... but still, that last terrible ride hurts.

    Elena

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  5. Thank you all, I appreciate your words.

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  6. Late, I know, it just occurred to me today to wonder if I might locate you on the 'net. My most sincere condolences Debbi (whom I will forever think of as "potwench,")on Maggie's passing. It was just over a year ago that we had to have Kellie put down (she was 12.5) and I still miss her. I'm just now thinking I might want another pup. So I'm thinking it will be a while for you for sure. Drop me an e-mail sometime.

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