April 22, 1996 to October 6, 2010
The house is empty. Her clicking toenails are no longer heard. It was hard to sleep without a small, 10-lb. pumpkin, snoring and pushing me over to the other side of the bed. When I finally drifted off for a moment, I could smell her. Her funny walk will no longer bring a smile to my face. She is not in one of her favorite spots right now, smiling her funny smile at me. No one sneezed on my face to wake me up this morning.
Our hearts ache in a way that feels like it will never heal.
Her last week was not good, though she never let on. She had a lot of heart, brave and rarely showed she was in pain.. She could barely eat the last few days. We thought it was her medication. She would take her cookie, nibble a bite then hide it away in her bed. She briefly tried play with her favorite faceless ducky yesterday. When I was combing her chest after her bath, I found her chest was deep maroon. Her blood was no longer clotting. I broke out in tears, knowing what was to come. We were lucky she made it through her first bout last spring. We were gifted with a mere 7 months more of her charms. It is not right to prolong pain. It is not fair that she had such a short life. She made it to her 70's, it did not seem even close to being long enough. We know intellectually we did all we could, yet feel like it was not enough.
Thank you Maggie for everything. You brought us love, laughter, and more. You will always be in our hearts. We miss you.